Yesterday night

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Spend a night with my ex, cause feeling a bit frighten of the room i reserve to stay the night of an event i have to attend.

The rooms have 2 beds. i didnt want sleep next to him cause of the fracture elbow arm i had in a process of healing. However he sleeps next to me. It was a nice night.😊 He hugged me till morning. However, i'm in a Dilemma, he was awake for awhile, he hug n kissed my cheek and say "I Love u" twice and went back to sleep.😳 i was consciously awake when i heard the words he said. 😓

I dont know whether he was talking in his sleep or whatever it is.😕I am so feeling the same way towards him 😢I know i still want him. I did Love him when we hooked up, but i left him because he was not committed and ready. Currently we are just re-dating. 😓 I dont want to have that feelings because i had been hurt that he wasnt ready last time. But on that night, hearing him say that, all i'm feeling is i so really want him badly. 😫 

I literally woke him up for the intimacy 💏making out, and he said he is tired but did say he'll promise make it up to me after the event i attended is done. Unfortunately, after the event, i went out for dinner with my friends, told him to meet up after that. He decide to see me next time. I feel angry, he promise to make it up. 😠😡😤

So frustuated right now!! 😖 I know some things wont change, but i wish that for a moment he'll priorties me first, sadly i'm just an option.

I dont know.......dont know what more i can say...😭😭💔