Yesterday night

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Spend a night with my ex, cause feeling a bit frighten of the room i reserve to stay the night of an event i have to attend.

The rooms have 2 beds. i didnt want sleep next to him cause of the fracture elbow arm i had in a process of healing. However he sleeps next to me. It was a nice night.😊 He hugged me till morning. However, i'm in a Dilemma, he was awake for awhile, he hug n kissed my cheek and say "I Love u" twice and went back to sleep.😳 i was consciously awake when i heard the words he said. 😓

I dont know whether he was talking in his sleep or whatever it is.😕I am so feeling the same way towards him 😢I know i still want him. I did Love him when we hooked up, but i left him because he was not committed and ready. Currently we are just re-dating. 😓 I dont want to have that feelings because i had been hurt that he wasnt ready last time. But on that night, hearing him say that, all i'm feeling is i so really want him badly. 😫 

I literally woke him up for the intimacy 💏making out, and he said he is tired but did say he'll promise make it up to me after the event i attended is done. Unfortunately, after the event, i went out for dinner with my friends, told him to meet up after that. He decide to see me next time. I feel angry, he promise to make it up. 😠😡😤

So frustuated right now!! 😖 I know some things wont change, but i wish that for a moment he'll priorties me first, sadly i'm just an option.

I dont know.......dont know what more i can say...😭😭💔

Familiar character,behavior

Currently, been watching this drama. I'm fond of the actor. First time saw him act in one series Vanilla Coklat. Aiman Hakim Ridza

Has always like a guy name Ridza thou 😆😁😘Anyway....in this drama series, the character he act, totally reminds me of the guy i dated, who happen to be my ex-boyfriend too. 2 years together, i chose to walk away, due to reason known to myself only. He contacted me back after almost a year i left him. Had a bad argument again, however we get back together but just dating for now. Apparently, hes the only ex, theres a song lyrics to this 🎶i keep getting back to that one thing i could walk away from🎶🎶😕 *sigh*

This character the actor act had a resemblence, even the looks my ex have, theyalmost look alike😬. A bit carried away, everytime i watch the episode 😤 At times i'm so mad to myself, why i still getting back to my ex. The things i want in a guy, he has it, One thing He Doesnt Smokes!!🚭 He may not be a Perfect Nice guy neither a Bad Guy.....its...i don't know whatelse to say about him. Another thing, His Ego boost makes me Nuts!! 😤

Oh dearie, how  & what am i going to do with myself...😵 

All i wish is this One particular person, to me he can swept my feet off within seconds 💯% 😍Angel guy. Dreamy??? No....he is real. Crazy me?? No....he is real. A person real. He address himself as the Angel. Reminds me of the movie Meet Joe Black. I love that movie. Extra ordinary, Angel of Death fell in Love with a human. He learn to love, about love, i guess thats how i felt towards him. I dont know him, no thing about him, just his Tantrums is all i know ☺️

But i heard no news from him & the last post i saw in his FB. i wish to tell him how i feel but i guess i'm too dreamy about it. 😓 Will there be a chance for us? I don't know. *feeling bitter* Frustuated thinking of it. 

An Ex i dated which i keep on getting back & i could walk away from repetatively & An Admire which i keep on dreaming we could be together & i keep on dreaming away.

Dear almighty, help me to pull this through. 🙏😕

Fracture left arm 28 Feb 2014

This happened last year in June 2013. I accidently caught my finger between the end side of a door. The door is something like the old thing cowboy flip door. I didnt notice was holding the side as it was dark in the club.

Had a hard time to drive. I can't grip my finger for a month but fully recover quickly in a month.😁

And now this year 28 Feb 2014 at 7.30pm, i accidently slipped n fell on my arm at work. The floor was sandy, which my flat shoes losing grip. It happen really quick!! I couldnt save myself to grab the side of my table. When i fell on my arm, i blackout few seconds, i get up but lay down cause my arm, too painful but still i forced myself to sit. I manage to sit up n take a deeppppp breathe. I stood n walk to the photocopier machine, i blackout again. My body was trembling in shock but i keep on telling myself, its just a minor sprain because i can move my hand. However the weird thing, when i want move it sideways, it was reallyyyy really painful, i stretch outwards only can do halfway, i flex trying to reach my shoulder, i couldnt do it n felt something hard. Still in denial, i think its sprain.😐

Went out with my friends for dinner, i keep on doing the same thing. I couldnt fully stretch n flex reaching my shoulder, couldnt move sideways. When to the emergency midnight, they gave a painkiller n send me to xray only the next morning.😖😵

Midnight emergency

Morning, Went do xray, the guy who do the xray saw the image, he was gasping n said 😯Oh gosh! Its fracture...." I was saying to him "

You serious....???!"😯

 With the worried n concern expression, He said "Thats why you can't move it sideways, stretch n flex" Completely speechless, hearing it... Xray for the second time, its confirm a fracture. He was nice n sweet asking i want see the xray image.

 So i go the other room n see it. He explain where the fracture is. I stood speechlessly, he asked "You ok?" I respond "No...."😐

Went to the Orthopedic, Doctor confirm that my arm, radial head fracture n undisplace as well. They cemented cased my arm healing for 3 weeks. First time in my life 😧

Arm casing is literally annoying especially the itchy part, i can't scratch!😤😤😤😤

Anyway, see in 3weeks time, imma have a hard time carrying heavy stuff from now on.

Speedy recovery🙏