As much i want to say things....all i can say is Depressed has succumb me again. The anxiety of not expressing how i really feel & it sad knowing i'm beating myself real bad, real hard on myself, i'm my own worst enemy!
I try to think of anything just to get myself distracted but it only last temporary.
I pray almost every night so the Almight can take away how i feel right now. It doesn't matter to me anymore the sense of having companion in your life but i can't, couldn't deny i want a Companion, a Partner, a Spouse, a Lover, a Soul mate because having someone is nice, someone who cares for you passionately, deep & i couldn't asked for more.