Constantly how i feel & its going to take a long haul
Thursday, April 9, 2015
Sunday, March 29, 2015
What do i think....
My thoughts - Today a really deep impact towards how i see things. Usually i would question this kind of stuffs; Values, Beliefs, Behaviors and Cultural differences.
In a sudden i sounded spiritual? Ya.....Something happened to me, someone i hold dear to my heart said such really deep words. He felt so down of failing to achieve advancing his next career.
I was sending a text to meet up before going back to my hometown. And he told me about the failure. He started to preach of all the Sins he had made, and thus of those doing may have affect his failure livelihood in career, and to stop seeing each other at the moment.
How do i feel about it?
I felt sorry for his failure. I didn't say much to him, cause my thoughts, my words, my beliefs, as i felt it has no benefits for him. However, its really hurtful hearing that. The Sins, intimacy in favor of lust we both had made has affecting his livelihood. He didn't 100% blame me thou & he wants me to understand his choice, but suddenly you started to act on your beliefs, religions, you pushed the person away in your life? I know i don't have a religions, but i have beliefs & values in life. Its really prejudice differentiating each other regardless on your religions, beliefs.
How i really, really feel?
Loneliness and uncertainty.Unsettling news that helps me to distance myself from a destructive relationship. Painfully honest communication that needs to take place. Not letting myself be dragged by my emotions into a negative situation. A trust or confidence betrayed in an attempt to help someone in need. The revelation of a painful truth.
I actually developed stronger feelings for him again after we parted ways 2 years ago. Its an On & Off relation. So i guess this is it, he finally made a choice. I don't know whether its a temporary parted away or permanent.
My choice?
Its naive of me saying, if one day he's back, should i give it another try? Deep down i wanted to, perhaps of the strong feelings i have for him but, what do i get from it? I hope if one day that happens I am Strong enough & firmed with my Values whether to accept him back or not in my life.
For one second back there, my thinking is
"You can never be good enough for everyone but don't let them guard down your Values."
In a sudden i sounded spiritual? Ya.....Something happened to me, someone i hold dear to my heart said such really deep words. He felt so down of failing to achieve advancing his next career.
I was sending a text to meet up before going back to my hometown. And he told me about the failure. He started to preach of all the Sins he had made, and thus of those doing may have affect his failure livelihood in career, and to stop seeing each other at the moment.
How do i feel about it?
I felt sorry for his failure. I didn't say much to him, cause my thoughts, my words, my beliefs, as i felt it has no benefits for him. However, its really hurtful hearing that. The Sins, intimacy in favor of lust we both had made has affecting his livelihood. He didn't 100% blame me thou & he wants me to understand his choice, but suddenly you started to act on your beliefs, religions, you pushed the person away in your life? I know i don't have a religions, but i have beliefs & values in life. Its really prejudice differentiating each other regardless on your religions, beliefs.
How i really, really feel?
Loneliness and uncertainty.Unsettling news that helps me to distance myself from a destructive relationship. Painfully honest communication that needs to take place. Not letting myself be dragged by my emotions into a negative situation. A trust or confidence betrayed in an attempt to help someone in need. The revelation of a painful truth.
I actually developed stronger feelings for him again after we parted ways 2 years ago. Its an On & Off relation. So i guess this is it, he finally made a choice. I don't know whether its a temporary parted away or permanent.
My choice?
Its naive of me saying, if one day he's back, should i give it another try? Deep down i wanted to, perhaps of the strong feelings i have for him but, what do i get from it? I hope if one day that happens I am Strong enough & firmed with my Values whether to accept him back or not in my life.
For one second back there, my thinking is
Friday, January 30, 2015
Should i....Or
Comtemplate of Giving up on your Wings.
I'll take a bow. Feelings i have for you still unknown, whether its Infatuation, dreaming....I don't know.
I'll take a bow. Feelings i have for you still unknown, whether its Infatuation, dreaming....I don't know. 
Sunday, January 4, 2015
New year countdown 2015 - DJ Yukie Surisa & Mc Coga - World Club Station Miri, Sarawak
Had my new year countdown 2015 in Miri at World ClubStation Bar. This year making another history getting hype with DJ Yukie Bangkok & Mc Coga 
Monday, December 22, 2014
December birthday babies Celebration 20.12.2015
First time celebrating with lotsa Aw'some crowd of friends. 
Monday, December 1, 2014
I've got to Admit...
Daughtry - Start of something good
To Mr AngeL, this song is for you
I've got to admit that the thought has crossed my mind
This might end up like it should
And I'm gonna say what I need to say
And hope to god that it don't scare you away
Don't wanna be misunderstood
Cause I don't know where it's going
There's a part of me that loves not knowing
Just don't let it end before we begin
Tuesday, November 25, 2014
Highlight of the year 2014
June 1st, 2014 - Had a close session Gawai celebration for my buddies a.k.a The Clowns ^o^ Was tipsy on the night, got carried away with the drinking LOL!! ^_^
Latest Sept 2014 - Our another one short get away to KL again.
We are left with 1 month++ to 2015. I don't know what the future holds for me. Can't promise anything but i'm gonna Live it to the Fullest!!
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