Highlight of the year 2014

March 1st, 2014 -  First ever in 30++ years, had my left elbow fracture. Experience - I kind of missing being temporary disable, but everything went to slowwww T_T, limited movement, its Bitter Sweet moment ^o^

June 1st, 2014 - Had a close session Gawai celebration for my buddies a.k.a The Clowns ^o^ Was tipsy on the night, got carried away with the drinking LOL!! ^_^

Latest Sept 2014 - Our another one short get away to KL again. 

We are left with 1 month++ to 2015. I don't know what the future holds for me. Can't promise anything but i'm gonna Live it to the Fullest!! 

My Story so far...

 Mr Arrogant - It has been 3 weeks now. Ever since No text, No calls from him, which 3 weeks back earlier i realise i meant nothing to him. He was out for the weekend but didn't bother letting me know about it. I text his whatsapp - No replied. I figure out i got block. Oh well, i did the same thing, i block his whatsapp till today & i decided to remove it.

Walking away for the 3rd time!! Its none of our fault, we just have different needs. I needed something which he can't even figure out it by himself. 

At this time, Letting Mr Arrogant go wasn't so heart breaking for me, because you were never mine to lose from the start.

I wish Mr Arrogant the best?

Pathetically speaking!

Lost

how i feel at the moment.

Dear, You - Mr AngeL

There i say it!!! 

 

Return & Away

Feeling bummed this few months. Well, i finally doing ok ever since the Mystery/Creepy thing in my room. Feeling better & look better! Hoping not to go through that again anymore! Pray to Almighty!  

With the dream i had this past few days, it made me thinking so much! I believe in dreams unless its something out of ordinary i might said i got carried away by it *peace*. I hardly had a dream when sleeping, so when i dream...it tells me something perhaps an answer i'm looking for; though most of it are like puzzles. I had to figure it out. I'll be get back to that in another blog post. *chill*

Anyhoo.....I was ranting my tantrums of the Return & Away. Posted a random/intentionally on my fb yesterday night and waking up early because a fan i followed on Younow is online live, Had to hear him singing *giggles*

Saw notification fb pop on my ipad, checked it and i saw Angel (likes). I guess that caught his attention! Mixed emotion all the way!! OMG!! OMG!! Blushing, giggling, shy. At the same time, i had this feeling I didn't wanna see his fb post, cause my emotion will turn from Way Up then down to ZERO - NIL - NADA, and typically blunt of me i check it out...and yup...Not knowing what is going on, what is he going through....Feeling so distant, feeling aloof *tears*

Though i feel down when i see the post,...i feel a LiL Happy seeing the updates, knowing you are still in one piece :p

Dear Angel, the pictures says how much i wanted to be there for you. I guess i will just be Dreaming away....

Mystery or Creepy

Havent been able to sleep well. After since had this creepy thing going on. 

Scary enough!! Had this sub concious situation, where i was about to sleep off, this sudden long finger nails touching my hand. I usually gets really angry when this kind of thing disturbing. So i was saying in my half sleep to go away. However it didnt stop, the moment i shout at it, i was awaken in a dream. In that dream i walk out from my bedroom, and reaching from behind to switch on the lights; that long finger pulled me back....i was so afraid and i manage to wakeup reality!!! I couldnt sleep till 5am. 

It has been 4 years, i hadnt felt so afraid to sleep in my bedroom. 

On the next night, i was closing my eyes to sleep & i saw this shadow linger around my face. I tell myself not to open my eyes & simply ignore but i had the tapping from my left shoulder. I keep on ignoring it. 

A friend of mine told me as he can see this thing, theres something lingering around me.

I knew, i felt something not right after since what happened, but in denial of this crap. 

Whoever you are, i'm living my life just like everyone else. If i have taken something that doesnt belong to me. I'm sorry, but at least let me know...its not mine to take if its belong to you. 

Dear Almighty, what test is this, i hope i can get thru all of it, but please protect my family and myself from it too. Theres noone more greater than you to prevent this thing, as i am a weak human. I would wish this thing to back fired but i wouldnt cause i am neither the same as them. I've given a heart to be very compassionate and a brain to think wisely.

 Cruelty doesnt solve anything. 

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