A Confession of a Broken Heart

Somehow tonight i'm feeling in Despair. In a sudden the past triggers all the memories I've been thru especially Relationship.

Antecedently, i was in a committed relationship for 10 years plus & it ended with uncertain words. I was left picking up all the shattered heart by myself. Honestly, i don't know what went wrong with the relationship that have been going for years. Thinking all the things had happened until today, i still question myself.

Remembering all the words have been spoken, being told to myself, Truthfully, i feel such a fool for believing all the words coming out from you.

Now that it's all said and done, I can't believe you were the one.

To build me up and tear me down like an old abandoned house.

What you said when you left, just left me cold and out of breath.

I felt if I was in way to deep, guess I let you get the best of me.

"Remember all the things we wanted"

"Now all our memories they're haunted"

You’re everything I thought you never were. And nothing like I thought you could’ve been. You’re the only one I wish I could forget. The only one I’d love enough To Not Forgive. I wouldn't be in denial with my feelings.

But it doesn't matter anymore to me, Where we take this road someone's gotta go. All i can say & i had said before "I had love you, so thats enough to let you go"

Everything I know about love
I learned from you
And everything I know about pain
I learned from you

You were my only, but Not my Last
You showed me lonely, and make me put you in the Past
But the most important thing you ever gave me
Was the one that hurt the most

Thank you for the broken heart
And thank you for the permanent scar,
'Cause if it wasn’t for you, I might forget
How it feels to let go, and how it feels to get a brand new start
So thank you for the broken heart

All my pain disappear
I've come so far

I thank you
For the broken heart

Lastly, I'll never have a broken heart again

Quotes :

Letting go doesn't mean giving up... it means moving on. It is one of the hardest things a person can do. Starting at birth, we grasp on to anything we can get our hands on, and hold on as if we will cease to exist when we let go. We feel that letting go is giving up, quitting, and that as we all know is cowardly. But as we grow older we are forced to change our way of thinking. We are forced to realize that letting go means accepting things that cannot be. It means maturing and moving on, no matter how hard you have to fight yourself to do so." ~

Sorry, I don't mean to offend anyone or whoever. Whoever is in my shoe would blog this thing out. Thats all.

My Vacation Feb 3rd 2011 Part 2

Vacation Feb 4th 2011 Part 2

The FootPrint Hostels, best ever to stay in.

7.00am: Waking up early off to Universal Studio

The Hallway of Footprint.

Taking a walk at Little India road, off to LRT

The usual pit stop 7Eleven, *yay* i was holding my breath to keep myself from sneezing!! *yaarrrgghhhh* Morning sneeze? No!! It was yesterday arriving in Singapore sneeze!! >.<

LRT Camera-ing shot!!

I was very sleepy!!! Sleepy headed face!!!

The Monorail that taking us all off to Sentosa Island, Universal Studio.

Monorail Camera-ing~

See how packed inside the monorail!!! Luckily i was standing wayyyyyy back inside!!!

Arrive at Universal Studio~

It was still early as the studio opens at 10.00am. We're like 1 hour early. We're off strolling down to the Garden.

I didn't want to stand on that water vapor, somehow just taking a short pose & it was wet; more to sweaty~ *shrugs*

Holding mybreath not to sneeze~!!!!!!!

Looking at this picture, my 2nd eldest bro(in red sleeveless), i realize that we both do look alike~ People always mistaken us for being Twins!!! I wish!!! ^_^

The So-Called-Twins spontaneously doing the one leg jumped!! Haaaaaa~

I waslaughing my head off when the fountain shooter tends to vibes up higher! My eldest bro had to stood still, for 15 secs for us to take the shot~ He's almost wet, more to really ends up getting wet!!! *LOL*

My turn getting the Jump!! I say, "Jump!!". Fountain says, "How High!!"

The Thinking Man~ My 2nd eldest Bro's left his Thinking Friend here. ^_^

Hi ho!! Universal Studio Globe!!!

Hungry~ Hungry~ Hungry mode!!!

Betty Boop on the Road!!

Salute the way on Universal Studio Pathway!!

Classic Bettle Juice

To conquer The Mummy Revenge!

I love this Galatica Rides!!! First ride 'Cylon'!! I had the best scream ever!! At the top of my lungs to relieve the stress!!!!

Second ride 'Human', guess what....i was freaking tired...my 2nd eldest bro was laughing at me because i was yawning during the ride!! *lol*

My Favorite Chocolatees M&M~ *this goes to Cranky Old Man, Joe B AngeL i'd always remember & most of all i missed your teasing mood ~_~* Where you at man???!!
A vacation is like love - anticipated with pleasure, experienced with discomfort, and remembered with nostalgia.

My Vacation Feb 3rd 2011 Part 1

Part 1: Singapore Feb 3rd - 6th 2011

My wish came true!!! Had my vacation to Singapore!!!! Yipeeeee!!!!

Feb 3rd 2011: 7.30am early morning boarding for Brunei via Airasia flight. Flight boarding at 9.30 however, our flight delayed 1 hour late.

Await at the boarding room was pretty much sleepy, but i manage to be on the same flight with a Dancer whom i'd collaborate with before, Suhai(white/black t-shirt). I didn't recognize him at first. So we had a small laugh, chit-chat, gossip-ing while waiting for the delayed flight heheheh...the usual us every time we meet. *winks*

On the plane. The last time we're board on plane was way back in 93' or 94'. Went to KotaKinabalu. My 2nd eldest Bro had this thingee afraid to be on plane. I'm like O.o*WTH* Crap!! hahaha~

Camera-ing on plane~ hahahaha

Eldest Bro being a Sleepyheaded!! He's always that sleepy~ Felt like imma Knocked him up so he would wake up!!!! hahahah >.<

Happy Jolly Jump to arrive safely at KLCC Malaysia Airport. 2.30pm

Which way to go for lunch~

Had our Coffee Zone killing the time~ Was craving for Vanilla Ice Blended since in Miri but didn't manage to get it. Finally i get it~ hahaha...Lame~ >.<

Being playful because we 3 are very Sleeppppppyyyyyyyyy!!!!

Waiting at boarding place~ Had a short walking around the shop in KLCC. We're like 3 hours early waiting for departure to Singapore at 6.00pm

Doing some stretching excersie...hahahha..more to a sexy stretch~ >.<

Arriving at Singapore. Meet our friend MsChaCha at Changi Airport. Checking in to FootPrint Backpacker Hostel at Little India. I simply love Footprint Hostel, the best ever.

Had our late supper & stroll along the pathway before getting some sleep for our next early morning of Universal Studio sight seeing.

7Eleven is the most favorite place to shop in, especially those small bottles of booze. While we're on plane off to Singapore, some smell trigger my nose sense where i keep on "SNEEZING" , i was sneezing the whole time along Singapore pathway. I had a flu & sore throat. Well the sneezing part really bugs me!!!! Even worst my sneezing keeps on going on till we're at Universal Studio the next morning.

Continuing for Part 2 Universal Studio sight seeing.

Hilary Duff - Someone's Watching Over Me (Live at the Gibson Amphitheatre)

Someone's Watching Over Me"

Found myself today
Oh I found myself and ran away
Something pulled me back
The voice of reason I forgot I had
All I know is you're not here to say
What you always used to say
But it's written in the sky tonight

So I won't give up
No I won't break down
Sooner than it seems life turns around
And I will be strong
Even if it all goes wrong
When I'm standing in the dark I'll still believe
Someone's watching over me

Seen that ray of light
And it's shining on my destiny
Shining all the time
And I wont be afraid
To follow everywhere it's taking me
All I know is yesterday is gone
And right now I belong
To this moment to my dreams

So I won't give up
No I won't break down
Sooner than it seems life turns around
And I will be strong
Even if it all goes wrong
When I'm standing in the dark I'll still believe
Someone's watching over me

It doesn't matter what people say
And it doesn't matter how long it takes
Believe in yourself and you'll fly high
And it only matters how true you are
Be true to yourself and follow your heart

So I won't give up
No I won't break down
Sooner than it seems life turns around
And I will be strong
Even if it all goes wrong
When I'm standing in the dark I'll still believe
That I won't give up
No I won't break down
Sooner than it seems life turns around
And I will be strong
Even when it all goes wrong
When I'm standing in the dark I'll still believe
That someone's watching over
Someone's watching over
Someone's watching over me

Someone's watching over me

Let Bygones Be Bygones

Let Bygones Be Bygones

All i can say for now!!

Cher - Strong Enough

I don't need your sympathy
There's nothing you can say or do for me
And I don't want a miracle
You'll never change for no one

I hear your reasons why
Where did you sleep last night?
And was she worth it, was she worth it?

'Cos I'm strong enough
To live without you
Strong enough and I quit crying
Long enough now I'm strong enough
To know you gotta go

There's no more to say
So save your breath
And then walk away
No matter what I hear you say
I'm strong enough to know you gotta go

So you feel misunderstood
Baby, have I got news for you
On being used, I could write a book
You don't wanna hear about it

I've been losing sleep
You've been going cheap
She ain't worth half of me it's true
I'm telling you

Now I'm strong enough to live without you
Strong enough and I quit crying
Long enough now I'm strong enough
To know you gotta go

Come hell or waters high
You'll never see me cry
This is our last goodbye, it's true

I'm telling you
That I'm strong enough to live without you
Stron enough and I quit crying
Long enough now I'm strong enough
To know you gotta go

There's no more to say
So save your breath
And you walk away
No matter what I hear you say
I'm strong enough to know you gotta go

Missing??

Friends are angels that come from above. Sent down from God for you to love. So if you are sad, and don't know what to do. Just remember that I care for you!

Missing you,

Hisashiburi Awg Gondol, Cranky old man J.Black Angel man

Yours truly,

Senile old woman but still I'm one Hot young lady~ hahahah....