December birthday babies Celebration 20.12.2015

First time celebrating with lotsa Aw'some crowd of friends. 

I've got to Admit...

Daughtry - Start of something good

To Mr AngeL, this song is for you 


I've got to admit that the thought has crossed my mind
This might end up like it should
And I'm gonna say what I need to say
And hope to god that it don't scare you away
Don't wanna be misunderstood

Cause I don't know where it's going
There's a part of me that loves not knowing
Just don't let it end before we begin

Highlight of the year 2014

March 1st, 2014 -  First ever in 30++ years, had my left elbow fracture. Experience - I kind of missing being temporary disable, but everything went to slowwww T_T, limited movement, its Bitter Sweet moment ^o^

June 1st, 2014 - Had a close session Gawai celebration for my buddies a.k.a The Clowns ^o^ Was tipsy on the night, got carried away with the drinking LOL!! ^_^

Latest Sept 2014 - Our another one short get away to KL again. 

We are left with 1 month++ to 2015. I don't know what the future holds for me. Can't promise anything but i'm gonna Live it to the Fullest!! 

My Story so far...

 Mr Arrogant - It has been 3 weeks now. Ever since No text, No calls from him, which 3 weeks back earlier i realise i meant nothing to him. He was out for the weekend but didn't bother letting me know about it. I text his whatsapp - No replied. I figure out i got block. Oh well, i did the same thing, i block his whatsapp till today & i decided to remove it.

Walking away for the 3rd time!! Its none of our fault, we just have different needs. I needed something which he can't even figure out it by himself. 

At this time, Letting Mr Arrogant go wasn't so heart breaking for me, because you were never mine to lose from the start.

I wish Mr Arrogant the best?

Pathetically speaking!

Lost

how i feel at the moment.

Dear, You - Mr AngeL

There i say it!!! 

 

Return & Away

Feeling bummed this few months. Well, i finally doing ok ever since the Mystery/Creepy thing in my room. Feeling better & look better! Hoping not to go through that again anymore! Pray to Almighty!  

With the dream i had this past few days, it made me thinking so much! I believe in dreams unless its something out of ordinary i might said i got carried away by it *peace*. I hardly had a dream when sleeping, so when i dream...it tells me something perhaps an answer i'm looking for; though most of it are like puzzles. I had to figure it out. I'll be get back to that in another blog post. *chill*

Anyhoo.....I was ranting my tantrums of the Return & Away. Posted a random/intentionally on my fb yesterday night and waking up early because a fan i followed on Younow is online live, Had to hear him singing *giggles*

Saw notification fb pop on my ipad, checked it and i saw Angel (likes). I guess that caught his attention! Mixed emotion all the way!! OMG!! OMG!! Blushing, giggling, shy. At the same time, i had this feeling I didn't wanna see his fb post, cause my emotion will turn from Way Up then down to ZERO - NIL - NADA, and typically blunt of me i check it out...and yup...Not knowing what is going on, what is he going through....Feeling so distant, feeling aloof *tears*

Though i feel down when i see the post,...i feel a LiL Happy seeing the updates, knowing you are still in one piece :p

Dear Angel, the pictures says how much i wanted to be there for you. I guess i will just be Dreaming away....