ChiLLaX CoRNeR

Missing you

2012-01-29T23:16:00.001+08:00

My Azary Kingkong, everytime i look at this Actor from Final Destination 5. The way he smiles, he talks, his gesture.....reminds me of you.

I Miss you baby~ T_T

New Year 2012

2012-01-02T22:40:00.002+08:00

Its New Year 2012.

My new year for 2012 is nothing new, Had my New Year Sleeping. But it was good to sleep, got more rest.

Anyway, i spend my New Year 01.01.2012 with my Mr Footballer Kingkong. I'm going to miss what we do yesterday. Went to Tanjong Lobang, Miri had our nice drink & seeing view at the stall. Had our dinner again there as well. Do our shopping too. Its not something i would do when i was in a relation before. But this, somehow i find its sweet & romantic.

I wish that we can do it more in the future but, he's going posting abroad for work.

Anyway, i'm gonna treasure what we have every now and then.

"We will open the book. Its pages are blank. We are going to put words on them ourselves. The book is called Opportunity and its first chapter is New Year's Day." ~ Edith Lovejoy Pierce

Ken Hirai - 楽園 Paradise (10thAnniversary_Part 4/18)

2011-12-25T00:41:00.000+08:00

Russell Peters Show Me The Funny : Part1

2011-10-22T11:34:00.000+08:00

Happy 33rd Birthday to Mr Maldives

2011-10-17T12:29:00.003+08:00

Oct 16th 2011 : Happy 33rd Birthday to my Sayang Alex

Have a Happy Birthday and remember my Sweet Kiss. Its waiting for you when you turn to me, your Fated Bliss.

Missing my man Mr Maldives

2011-10-05T03:28:00.004+08:00

Love is missing someone whenever you're apart, but somehow feeling warm inside because you're close in heart.

~Kay Knudsen

I Miss you....My Sayang .....❤Mr Alex Maldives❤

You may be out of my sight... but never out of my mind...

❤I Miss You Love!❤

I miss you Maldives

2011-09-18T19:56:00.002+08:00

Whatever we have Mr Maldives, you're always be someone who i miss alot than ever.

Loss of the Loved Ones

2011-09-17T08:48:00.000+08:00

September 15th 2011

It marks the day for my Family, for My Dad; his Dearest Younger Brother has decease. *rest in peace Dearest uncle* ;(

Look alike

2011-08-21T08:30:00.009+08:00

Hey, just sharing some stuff.

Last night went out with 2 friends of mine Ms Diva & Mr Pelusor. Heheheh....they had their sungkai at Pasta Mania Gadong. Food was great...love the pasta so much!

And so we had our updates, lots lots of update we got from Mr Pelusor. We watch Final Destination 5 3D Movie. Surprisingly a white young man sits besides me. Good catch thou, he had the best smell perfume (naughty me ^_^).

Final Destination 5 the action throughout was very sick, freaky!!. I even had to hold my breath alot. Oh yah, our Ms Diva FREAKED OUT...as she's not fond of this accidents thingee. I'd almost jumped out as she about to hug me due to freak out!! *gulps*

Anyhoo, something bothers me during watching the movie. The main character Sam Lawton (Nicholas D'Agosto), the BIAF guy i went out on a date last week with, totally look like him. His hair, his smile, its everything This BIAF guy..hmm..all i can say about him is; A good catch but somehow unpurposely something happened between me & him. I do wana say it here out loud; then again i Respect his Reputation thou what had happened was; it really Hurts me in some way. Fortunately I Forgive as people make bad decision, mistakes & due to the incident i permit myself Not to be in contact with him as the things he did i bet most people wouldn't wana let it go. Deep down i do care about this BIAF guy, i kinda like the way he is; except at some point he's Selfish (D if you come across reading this, i'm truly sorry as thats the 1st impression you gave & 1st impression always last long. sorry again i'm being frank =.=)

So i guess what happened between BIAF guy & me, I thank almighty for letting me to be in a situation where almost everybody could make the Biggest Mistakes ever done but somehow Almighty keep me in safe, good hands of him as the Almighty he who knows everything *tears*Experience teaches slowly and at the cost of mistakes.

I told My Sayang Alex Maldives about the date i had. He's a little Jealous but i'm glad(hopefully) he understand as he knows he can't be there & need certain things which he might not be able to do with me. After what had happened it brings me Closer than i ever been to Alex Maldives *cries*. Plus I've met this wonderful Man ever in my life & he's one of Ms Diva's uncle. He have this special gift. I know it sounds a little superstitious but i believe in something. And so i asked him about Alex, i'm glad what i had to hear & some of my hunch was correct. So i really thankful to Ms Diva's uncle, its something i can never repay in life.

Since the met with Ms Diva's uncle, my hunch tells me; I guess; hopefully Almighty is telling me that Be Patience as its worth while, Be Wise as it guarantees on the things you do in life. Doing for the good reason will come out good things even if it doesn't Almighty wants to you to realize that Life is a Mystery & we Learn the Easy & Tough way thru.

Lastly, whatever i had been thru last week....hopefully it'll keep & bare myself in mind.

❤I Love you My Sayang Alex Maldives❤ Thou its too early to say so but as time goes by my feelings becomes stronger everyday, every minute. I can't wait to be in your arms. I MISS YOU LOT my Love!!!!

I have Faith

2011-08-15T18:57:00.005+08:00

After since yesterday, lot of things happen. One point to another.

Went to miri last Saturday with my friend Ms Diva, as she had errands to do. And i myself have another stuff to do. All i can say what happen on Saturday, everything was Blunt & Spontaneous.

To that someone, i know i didn't even can't say much of what happen. Things happen in a fast lane. I myself still figuring out which Values i put in my first list as things change real quick nowadays. But if you're here for the real thing, i'm gladly would see how things goes. As you are not far from my sight. Just for now gotta to do it on the slow lane. Will see whats on the track. As always Sincere & Honesty are the things i Need from you.

Its "Expect the Unexpected", "Unexpect the Expected". Its very complex to me.

A good news for me. I have Faith in my hunch about someone i'm looking forward to know in person. Thou you are Far from my sight, Far beyond the across the Sea, Far along the another Island; as i said earlier in the first place, I Have Nothing to Offer except for Myself. This is what i have & who i am. No Mask in Disguise.

All i Need is from you is to be Sincere & Honesty with what you have to offer. I am here Not to play Games. Even put whoever in a Test. I can't question much of what people gotta to do just to have An Assurance with what they put on the line.

And so I Believe that, whatever you do, When you do things for a Good reason of course things will be good unless its the opposite way. It has always our choice to make.

Anyway, to Almighty, what you have for me. I know deep down i'm a little scare of things doesn't i may expect it to be but I Pray, I Believe & put Faith that theres something Good even Better for me in life.

Sure Thing - Miguel Jontel Cover

2011-08-10T03:25:00.000+08:00

Sure thing - Miguel

I'll be like a brother,

Treat you like a friend.

Respect you like a lover

Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh

You could bet that
Never gotta sweat that [4x]

If you be the cash, I'll be the rubber band.
You be the match, I will be your fuse, boom!
Painter baby, You could be the muse.
I'm the reporter baby, You could be the news,
'Cause you're the cigarette, And I'm the smoker.
We raise a bet, 'Cause you're the joker,
Truth tho.
You are the chalk, And I can be the blackboard
You could be the talk, And I could be the walk.

Even when the sky comes falling,
Even when the sun don't shine,
I got faith in you and I,
So put your pretty little hand in mine.
Even when we're down to the wire babe,
Even when it do or die,
We could do it baby, simple and plain,
'Cause this love is a sure thing.

You could bet that,
Never gotta sweat that [4x]

You could be the lover, I'll be the fighter, babe.
If I'm the blunt, You could be the lighter babe
Fire it up!
Writer baby, You could be the quote,
If I'm the lyric baby, You could be the note.
Record that!
Saint, I'm a sinner, Prize, I'm a winner,
And it's you
What did I do to deserve that.
Paper baby, I'll be the pen
Say that I'm the one,'Cause you're a ten.
Real and not pretend!

Even when the sky comes falling,
Even when the sun don't shine,
I got faith in you and I,
So put your pretty little hand in mine.
Even when we're down to the wire baby,
Even when it's do or die,
We could do it baby, simple and plain,
'Cause this love is a sure thing.

Now rock with me babe,
Let me hold you in my arms,
Talk with me babe yeah, yeah [2x]

This love, between you and I,
Is simple as pie baby
It's such a sure thing (such a sure thing)
Ooh it such a sure thing (such a sure thing)

Even when the sky comes falling,
Even when the sun don't shine,
I got faith in you and I,
So put your pretty little hand in mine.
Even when we're down to the wire baby,
Even when it's do or die,
We could do it baby, simple and plain,
'Cause this love is a sure thing.

(You can bet that
Never gotta sweat that)

I'll be like a brother,
Treat you like a friend.
Respect you like a lover

Emotion

2011-08-06T10:33:00.007+08:00

Here i wanted to share some stuff. Its about emotion. Currently, i'm emotionally attached but not in a relationship.(hope you peeps understand :p) Talking about LDR (Long distance relationship), most people would freak out. Honestly i myself didn't expect to be in one thou i consider myself not to be in that picture but i am now.

Firstly i'll give him a nickname cause i don't want to be so expose(yea..i know you peeps says "still its the internet everybody can be anybody" But "WHATEVER" this is my blog & i do things my way *kapish* :p)

OK...so let us name him my Mr Maldives. He works in Maldives at one of the Tourism as HR Front Office. Original he's from New Zealand. I knew him from one of this internet website & no its not Facebook, not Myspace :p Honestly, i know this does offence people not i'm being racist to western people, i guess I feel intimidated of people like them being around me. Most of the time the feeling of low self-esteem cause to me they have this High expectation from everyone (its my personal opinion thou ^_^) & i don't think i can live up to their expectation.

Anyhoo, Mr Maldives is the one who added me as friend, well i can't deny how cute looking his pictures are but of course i have "doubts". The thing is when i accept the friend request there's no respond of 'thank you for adding' so i presume Mr Maldives was just browsing my profile as mine is privately restricted. Its my habit to send comments to every of my friends list to acknowledge them. Till one day, Mr Maldives inbox & saying thank you. (i was like...its not necessary to inbox & say thank you, the least he can do is send me back some comment to my profile wall) Mr Maldives asked for my skype, unfortunately that time i don't have one & intend not to signup one at all cause i have to many thingee with this internet, such a hassle at times. He did ask for my hotmail, of course i randomly give him. I did waited for him on my hotmail but i didn't had any respond, so i presume again this people just playing around. And after 2 weeks, of course its my habit sending comments & there Mr Maldives inbox me again! The usual ask for my skype....

Soooooooooo, No thanks to him i signup for Skype. :p And the rest goes on.

Things started to be casual at first as for me, i'm not fond of LDR, Online relationship & whatever virtual relations are. Somehow along the way, things going to a good feeling, thou it does comes with a "BIG INSECURITY" & that goes to me. And for Mr Maldives he needs "ASSURANCE".

We had the same in common, We both don't believe in Online relation but we're actually in one now (yaa...in our face right :p) Its not something we like to have for someone we can't feel & touch *and that sucks..period ;(* Time difference is such a Hassle where Mr Maldives is 3 hours behind from Brunei clock time. I guess both of us having sleeping disorder.

For the first time in one month we had our first argument last 4 days. Its a point of Mr Maldives: was really in need of me but i don't want to give in that time. And he hates me for it. I got angry to the point of where he said he should have gone out with other chic but he go back to his place & spend the time with me & i'm not working things out with him emotionally.

But we had our talk last night. He was Sorry, and i come to a point where he's free to do anything even getting laid :p with a condition; Don't get those chic have "Bun in the oven". Thats all i can do for now. LoLx :D Come on, you ladies should agree with me on this!

As for Mr Maldives come to a point, He's trying to hold himself. He knows things will only work out the time he'll come to visit me in Brunei. I once say to Mr Maldives, I can't promise anything as i can put myself giving us False hope.

Honestly, deep down i do put Faith to whatever Mr Maldives & I having & i do wish to see whats the long run between both of us. All i need is Sincere & after since the argument i'm so into deep of needing him close to me for i can't wait to see him immediately. How crazy that can be T_T

So, that my emotions, for i can't officially says "I'm in Love" Its still early to judge & as i say We'll see in the long run. And lastly shout out loud to My Sayang Mr A.Maldives "Fuck distance. Be here Now"

Happy weeked peeps! ^_^

Pressure

2011-07-08T22:31:00.005+08:00

Okay, i'm Under pressure Stress out!! Period!!

I so wanna scream it out about what! All i can express it throughout the pictures!

I'd almost breakdown & cry during work hours! Imagine that!

But i get on my feet & start mumbling to myself so i won't just break down crying out of a sudden!

There *kapish*

Quick share

2011-07-05T23:28:00.004+08:00

July 5th 2011

I'll be quick,

Today went for job interview. Good news, I got the job!! *jolly jump* And i'm starting tomorrow!! Yea!! Congrats to me! *pat meself on the back* :p

Last night i couldn't sleep, as we tend to get nervous or whatsoever feeling for the job interview. Somehow, i pull thru ^_^

At the same time, i thought of was one particular person.

Indirectly, i make that person as a Stimulant in my life for now.

All i can say, i thank Almighty for the sustenance of the job i have now.

My Family, BFFs, Friends, relatives for their infinite prayers & support.

And maybe i want to thank that person, maybe you do or did come across reading this

& knew something. I thank you for your prayer & support too.

And

I hope that you're doing okay. Whatever you're going thru, i won't ask much..... just, Jangan Menyepi tanpa berita for this time. Do let us know at least a pinch of something. Bluntly saying, I Care.

Sky

Happy birthday Mom

2011-07-05T23:23:00.003+08:00

July 5th 2011:

Today marks 50th Birthday for my mom

Sorry mom, i don't have any beautiful pictures of you but you are always beautiful & cheerful mom we have!! Love you XOXO

July 2nd 2011 Miri Getaway

2011-07-03T23:04:00.003+08:00

Cherrie Berries July 2nd 2011 was totally packed!!!!

Miri getaway this time was simple. Going with my chillax friends Ms Spiller, Ms Hamster, Ms Diva, Ms Drama Queen & friends, Vicki, Moleo, Cassa, Fido Dido & friends. Cherrie Berries was really packed & crowded!! My friends & i end up dancing on a speaker the whole night. That is the only place where we can dance without being pushed or hitting each other. Never in my clubbing years i had to hug while dancing especially with our guy friends. Oh well...our guy friends are gentlemens that night....i loike it~ Hehehe...

Aside from that, i'd had leg cramp on the dance floor too!! *tsk*sobs* I was trying to avoid stepping on someones feet with my heels, sadly i accidently have LEG CRAMP!! Imagine that in the middle of the dance floor with lots, lots, of people dancing!! I had to hold on to my friend dancing on the speaker!! Luckily i recover fast!! My friend pull me up again to dance on the speaker!! *critically hectic friends*

Back to the hotel by 3am. One thing, i had a hard time to sleep!! Not insomnia!! Just i can't sleep!! Slept almost 5am & had to wake up by 9am.

But anyhoo, weekend was fun & simple. I thank to our guy friends, thanks for taking good care of us ladies, while we shake our sexy, cute dance on speaker. You guys are very the gentleman :p

Kasia Popowska - Big Girls Don't Cry (Fergie COVER)

2011-06-26T02:46:00.000+08:00

I hope you know, That this has nothing to do with you
It's Personal, Myself and I
I've got some straightenin' out to do

To be with Myself and Center
Clarity, Peace, Serenity

I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket
But I've got to get a move on with my life
It's time to be a big girl now
And big girls don't cry

You'll always be missed by me エンジェル JB

To Love someone

2011-06-23T03:22:00.005+08:00

I still question myself..... I have strong feelings for you its just i couldn't figure it out what is it yet.

Regardlessly i want you to know...

And I wish to comfort you in every ways i can.

Dark & Light

2011-06-23T03:12:00.003+08:00

I remember back then, I'm the Devil who plucks your wings & you the AngeL chop my head off; send back to Hell. At the same time can't find the head cause you sell it off on e-bay hahahahha...very hilarious ^_^ Nevertheless i'll still gonna come back to get your heart & soul......won't give up!! :p

"Darkness. Unpleasant. Wouldn't trust them. Nor do I trust every mortal I meet. I don't know where evil comes from, and frankly it doesn't matter. Not right now. Histories and myths are renamed and reinvented eternally across the world. I can't speak to that. What I do know? This is your story."
— Leanna Renee Hieber (The Darkly Luminous Fight for Persephone Parker)

Meet Kyle - Anthem Lights

2011-06-17T15:47:00.000+08:00

Addiction Kyle Kupecky Anthem Lights

2011-06-17T15:34:00.002+08:00

You're my newest addiction, Kyle Kupecky!!!

And yes we both love Ice cream big time!!!

Weekend getaway to Miri Part 3

2011-06-13T15:52:00.003+08:00

Mr Chivas Regal, you make me Cranky!! I don't like you!!! No more you Mr Chivas Regal!!

My friend told me, i was in tears & cranky. Yeap....i remembered everything, i was in tears because i don't like getting wasted after having fun Clubbing & end throwing up all those liquid!!! One thing i remember the most.....I was Tantrum-ting about Wing Feather mahn. I felt sorry for myself, i couldn't tell myself things are so different & theres nothing i can do about it!!

Somehow after hours of in tears & taking shower, i get up on my knees. Tell myself "I'm gonna be Okay"

Wing Feather guy, i'm totally sorry i couldn't help myself thinking about you.

What I Wanted is to be Needed. What i Need is to be Indispensable to somebody. Who I Need is somebody that will Eat up all my Free time, My Ego, My Attention. Somebody addicted to me. A Mutual Addiction ^_^ :p

Weekend getaway to Miri Part 2

2011-06-13T15:24:00.007+08:00

On our way back to the hotel, meet bunch of familiar guys. Kaybeeians people thou. I was talking to them (as i'm totally tipsy & sober) "Don't laugh or else i'll start to laugh non-stop!!" So those bunch of guys started to chat with me while i was waiting for my friend to grab my car keys in the room, it was just a random chat. We did send one of the guy who happens to be lost, didn't even know how to go back to his own room. Hopefully they wouldn't recognize me back in KayBee home....ahahaha.... :p

Walking off to our hotel room, i fell on the floor because my friend, she was laughing....i don't know what the heck she's laughing about & so i fell real bad & got bruises on my knee + thighs.

Went out to order late food & on the way back to the hotel, I BARFED!! Passenger seats got nasty & dirty!! Total wasted!!!

Years of drinking this is my 3rd time got wasted!! Chivas is definitely a NO NO in my drinking session!! But my friend treat us an Open bottle, so i just gobble it up!!

Weekend getaway to Miri

2011-06-13T14:55:00.009+08:00

Saturday 11th June 2011

Weekend getaway to Miri with friends. Its my first time driving off to Miri, but somehow along the way to Imperial Palace Hotel my car got OVERHEATED!!! Luckily i was with a friend & yes only the two of us "LADIES". Seriously i checked everything back at home in Belait; guess what the water tank "EMPTY"!! WHAT THE F**K?!! I filled it up before going off!! But anyhoo.....things went okay!! My car manage to survive till i'm back to my home Belait.

Its been awhile i didn't go to Cherrie Berries, usually we went to Balcony. The last time i went to Cherrie Berries was last year February. Well....i'm quite impressed last saturday night with the Music & DJ, unlike last time + few years back the music kind of sucks!! But yeah....i had a Blast, Super, Awesome night on the Dance Floor.

Plus, plus.....9 months of being a Bachelorette, i manage to dance with a cute, hunky, tall guy. He looks like Nicholas Saputra.Cuteeeeeee!!!!!!!

Didn't take pictures much. One of a HELL Experience with my car overheated. I got Sober, Wasted & Cranky. No thanks to Chivas Regal!!! I got Fu(Ked Up by it!! :p

If i Had yOu-Claude Kelly Lyrics

2011-06-09T15:04:00.001+08:00

If I Had You

If you were my man,
I was your woman.
We were in love,
Here's what would happen.
I'd show you things,
You would be so open.
I know I never will.

But if I had you,
All of the things I would do.
Everyday we would start something new,
And I'd put my world around you.
Oh baby, if I had you...

If that girl on your arm,
Wasn't in the picture.
And if that ring,
Wasn't on her finger.
I would move in,
And what I was after?
God know she's a lucky girl.

But if I had you,
All of the things I would do.
Everyday we would start something new,
And I'd put my world around you.
Oh baby, cause if I had you...
All of the things I would do.
Everyday we would start something new,
And I'd put my world around you.
Oh baby, cause if I had you...

Why am I here on the outside,
With all these feelings kept inside.
Why is this never the right time,
Now I'm so confused.

If I had you,
All of the things I would do.
Everyday we be something brand new,
Oh baby, if I had you,
Ohh... had you,
If I had you.

Anime Artwork

2011-06-06T16:13:00.007+08:00

Just sharing some of anime artworks.

Forbidden Love between Dark & Light AngeL

Forbidden Love Demon & AngeL

“Deep down we have the qualities of Clarity, Awareness, Sensitivity, Warmth & Love but , we have little idea at the outset just how deep and vast those qualities can be”

Forbidden emotions are hard to bury, but unspoken emotions are torture.

Sorry for i am mesmerize by all the tantrums written on your delicate feather wings you have.

Muslim Conversion function for Sang Gira (My 2nd eldest brother) Part 1

2011-06-04T13:27:00.018+08:00

JUNE 3RD 2011

Marks the day of a dearest Son to my parents & a brother to us siblings. Had choose a religion; Muslim as a pathway to life. He had chose his Muslim name Taufiqur Rahman bin Abdullah Gira.

Let the pictures do all the talking :p

Theres a story behind this, my bro's friends were telling me that, he was looking for me non-stop; as i was kind of LATE for the function to start. I think he called my phone like more than 10 times!!! I told his friends, He wouldn't want to start the function until he saw me under his nose!! heheheh ^_^

Our dearest loving parents. We love you Mom & Dad~! The best parents, they don't judge us real harsh on whatever choices we chose for our life.

Us siblings ^_^

With best buddies that includes me too~!!^_^

With besties

With Besfriend

Us being eldest & i'm always the youngest sister to both brothers.....heheheh :p *prasan sekajap*

Work Collegues

Aunties, Dad's young sisters

With cousins

Taufiqur Rahman *heh...where the heck is my sis?? she's late!!"

*Bro....stop calling my phone....Here i am...glancing at yah back :p"

"I'm here bro....what you want aaaahhhh~!! See i talk to you so ugly that" :p

Silence, Untouched and Unknown

2011-06-02T17:04:00.003+08:00

After the long absence.....knowing that particular person is still in one piece, i feel glad. There are so many things i want to say & share towards that person but a flash scoop "Vows".

As i did tell myself the past few months, so that explains the absences.

Nevertheless, I'm Happy for you! I wish you Happiness, Joy, Peace in your Life.

As for the things i wanted to say & share towards you.....i'll just leave it the way they are; Untouched & Unknown.

You'll be missed.

2011-06-02T16:23:00.004+08:00

Here I Sit Waiting for Life to Move, Not Faster, Not Slower but to Move.

And i'm a Wanderer.

BBQ Picnic Pantai Seri Kenangan Tutong May 1st 2011

2011-05-14T11:10:00.013+08:00

May 1st 2011 Seri Kenangan Beach Tutong

Its been awhile, The ChiLLaXCorner had their gathering. Finally the day comes.

Almost most of the ChiLLax Crowds thou...but nevertheless its a fun day.

The Strong Maiden, yet theres a story behind that stone. Our Ms Flirty(white sleeveless) injured her finger. Had stitches, i heard they put back the finger meat. *poor our Ms Flirty Lof*

There you can see the injured finger but Ms Flirty still enjoying being wacky the whole day.

Ms Flirty crazily carry me!!*yikes* :p

BBQ Foodssss!! *hungreyh*

ATV Pose!!!

ChiLLaXCorner Maidens

ChiLLaXCorner Models *pouts* :p

Ms SpiLLer Lof & Me

Quotes : I'm into all that sappy stuff - a surprise picnic, nice dinner, or traveling. I'm kind of an old romantic.

Nicole Scherzinger - Don't Hold Your Breath (Let's Dance For Comic Relie...

2011-05-09T18:48:00.000+08:00

You can’t touch me now there’s no feeling left
If you think I’m coming back don’t hold your breath
What you did to me boy I can’t forget
If you think I’m coming back don’t hold your breath

I was under your spell for such a long time couldn't break the chains
You played with my heart tore me apart withall your lies and games
It took all the strength I had but I crawled up on my feet again
Now you’re trying to lure me back but no those days are gone my friend
I loved you so much that I thought that someday you could change
But all you brought me was a heart full of pain

You can’t touch me now there’s no feeling left
If you think I’m coming back don’t hold your breath
What you did to me boy I can’t forget
If you think I’m coming back don’t hold your breath

Don’t hold your breath eh eh

I was worried about you but you never cared about me none
You took my money and I know that you, you could kill someone
I gave you everything but nothing was ever enough
You were always jealous over such crazy stuff

You can’t touch me now there’s no feeling left
If you think I’m coming back don’t hold your breath

What you did to me boy I can’t forget
If you think I’m coming back don’t hold your breath

Don’t hold your breath

Move on don’t look back
I jumped off a train running off the tracks
Your day is gone face the facts
A bad movie ends and the screen fades to black
What you did to me boy I can’t forget
If you think I’m coming back

You can’t touch me now there’s no feeling left
If you think I’m coming back don’t hold your breath
What you did to me boy I can’t forget
If you think I’m coming back don’t hold your breath

Don’t hold your breath

You can’t touch me now there’s no feeling left
If you think I’m coming back don’t hold your breath
What you did to me boy I can’t forget
If you think I’m coming back don’t hold your breath

Joel & Luke - Love´s To Blame

2011-05-08T02:20:00.000+08:00

Loves To Blame

Time in Time I thought through it all
How we loved and loved
and how we fought each other
pushing one another
to be somebody else

and time in time for the rest of my thoughts
I certain if the end was right or wrong
and wether we so should be together with somebody else

a lost memory
she/he had water in her eyes
she/he cried stay with me
say how can this be loved
if you are leaving me
but darling love's to blame

and i can't see you right now
'cause my heart just can't take it
can't be near you right now
'cause i know you're no longer mine
I can't see you

it makes me ache that we had to break
even though i knew your heart so well
we're strangers in different places
thought we're livin mile apart

my best friends got my world as being soft
we'll never share a name of her be promed
but i will always remember the years we've spent in love

I still think of you
I pray that you were save
I'm still missing you
but it has to be this weakest
I'm not right for you
and that's why love's to blame

and i can't see you right now
'cause my heart just can't take it
can't be near you right now
'cause i know you're no longer mine
I can't see you right know
'cause my heart just can't fake it
can't be near you rigth now
cause I know you're no longer mine

and I can't see you
oh i can't see you
I just can't see you right now

But maybe time will heal the hearts
and maybe after time you'll understand
I take the darker side of me

and i can't see you right now
'cause my heart just can't take it
can't be near you right now
'cause i know you're no longer mine
and I can't see you right know
'cause my heart just can't fake it
can't be near you rigth now
cause I know you're no longer mine

and i can't see you
no, i can't see you
i just can't see you rigth now

no i can't see you
i just can't see you
i just can't see you right know

and love's to blame

Seventh Day Slumber Last Regret (Wth lyrics )

2011-05-04T14:27:00.000+08:00

Within Temptation - What have you done (Lyrics)

2011-05-04T02:12:00.000+08:00

What Have You Done

Would you mind if I hurt you?
Understand that I need to
Wish that I had other choices
than to harm the one I love

What have you done now?!

I know I'd better stop trying
You know that there's no denying
I won't show mercy on you now
I know, should stop believing
I know, there's no retrieving
It's over now, what have you done?

What have you done now?!

I, I've been waiting for someone like you
But now you are slipping away... oh
Why, why does fate make us suffer?
There's a curse between us, between me and you

What have you done?! What have you done?!
What have you done?! What have you done?!
What have you done now?!
What have you done?! What have you done?!
What have you done?! What have you done?!
What have you done now?!

Would you mind if I killed you?
Would you mind if I tried to?
'cause you have turned into my worst enemy
You carry hate that I don't feel
It's over now
What have you done?

What have you done now?!

I, I've been waiting for someone like you
But now you are slipping away... oh
What have you done now?!
Why, why does fate make us suffer?
There's a curse between us, between me and you

What have you done?! What have you done?!
What have you done?! What have you done?!
What have you done now?!
What have you done?! What have you done?!
What have you done?! What have you done?!
What have you done now?!

What have you done now?
(what have you done, what have you done?)
(what have you done, what have you done?)

I will not fall, won't let it go
We will be free when it ends

I, I've been waiting for someone like you
But now you are slipping away... oh
What have you done now?!
Why, why does fate make us suffer?
There's a curse between us, between me and you

I, I've been waiting for someone like you
But now you are slipping away... oh
What have you done now?!
Why, why does fate make us suffer?
There's a curse between us, between me and you...

Quotes of the day : Relationships are like glass. Sometimes it's better to leave them broken than try to hurt yourself putting it back together

There are things that we don't want to happen but have to accept, things we don't want to know but have to learn, and people we can'' live without but have to let go.

SNSD Tiffany By Myself English subbed

2011-04-27T09:42:00.000+08:00

For you Mie Sweet J T_T

I had enough

2011-04-21T15:43:00.000+08:00

I BleeD

I Cry

I'm Tired

I Had enough

This is all i need

DON'T ASSUME THAT LOVE COULD FORGIVE EVERYTHING

BECAUSE FOR ME, I CUT OFF LOVE

i will be lyrics avril lavigne

2011-04-20T10:20:00.000+08:00

I Will Be

There's nothing I could say to you
Nothing I could ever do to make you see
What you mean to me
All the pain, the tears I cried
Still you never said goodbye and now I know
How far you'd go

I know I let you down but it's not like that now
This time I'll never let you go

I will be all that you want and get myself together
'Cause you keep me from falling apart
All my life, I'll be with you forever
To get you through the day and make everything okay

I thought that I had everything
I didn't know what life could bring
But now I see, honestly
You're the one thing I got right
The only one I let inside
Now I can breathe 'cause you're here with me

And if I let you down, I'll turn it all around
'Cause I would never let you go

I will be all that you want and get myself together
'Cause you keep me from falling apart
And all my life, I'll be with you forever
To get you through the day and make everything okay

Without you I can't breathe
I'm not gonna ever, ever let you leave
You're all I got, you're all I want, oh
'Cause without you I don't know what I'd do
I can never, ever live a day without you
Here with me, do you see you're all I need?

And I will be, all that you want and get myself together
'Cause you keep me from falling apart
And all my life, I'll be with you forever
To get you through the day and make everything okay

I will be all that you want and get myself together
'Cause you keep me from falling apart
And all my life, I'll be with you forever
To get you through the day and make everything okay

"I never knew it hurt so much to lose something I never had"

Mie Sweet J ❤ I'm glad to have known you even the happiness just for a while.

2PM - Without U MV [english subs + romanization + hangul]

2011-04-16T15:50:00.000+08:00

linkin park - don't stay (lyrics in description)

2011-04-11T19:38:00.000+08:00

Sometimes I
need to remember just to breathe
Sometimes I
need you to STAY AWAY FROM ME
Sometimes I'm
in disbelief I didn't know
Somehow I
need you to go

Don't Stay
Forget our memories
Forget our possibilities
What you were changing me into
(Just give me myself back and)
Don't Stay
Forget our memories
Forget our possibilities
Take all your faithlessness with you
(Just give me myself back and)
Don't Stay

Sometimes I
feel like I trusted you too well
Sometimes I
just feel like SCREAMING AT MYSELF
Sometimes I'm
in disbelief I didn't know
Somehow I
need to be alone

Don't Stay
Forget our memories
Forget our possibilities
What you were changing me into
(Just give me myself back and)
Don't Stay
Forget our memories
Forget our possibilities
Take all your faithlessness with you
(Just give me myself back and)
Don't Stay

I don't need you
anymore
I don't want to be ignored
I don't need one
more day
If you're wasting me away
I don't need you
anymore
I don't want to be ignored
I don't need one
more day
If your wasting me away...
(with no apologies)

Don't stay
Forget our memories
Forget our possibilities
What you were changing me into
(Just give me myself back and)
Don't Stay
Forget our memories
Forget our possibilities
Take all your faithlessness with you
(Just give me myself back and)
Don't stay

Don't stay
Don't Stay

Happy Birthday to Our Lof Ms SpiLLeR

2011-04-08T08:57:00.002+08:00

April 7th 2011

At Marilyn Cafe Kuala Belait. Birthday bash for our Ms SpiLLeR(in White blouse being choked). Thats half of the ChiLLaX Crowds~ Few of them can't be there due to work mode. Anyhoo, Ms SpiLLeR its been 15 years now we've been friends. Every moment we treasure~

A Confession of a Broken Heart

2011-03-15T23:22:00.004+08:00

Somehow tonight i'm feeling in Despair. In a sudden the past triggers all the memories I've been thru especially Relationship.

Antecedently, i was in a committed relationship for 10 years plus & it ended with uncertain words. I was left picking up all the shattered heart by myself. Honestly, i don't know what went wrong with the relationship that have been going for years. Thinking all the things had happened until today, i still question myself.

Remembering all the words have been spoken, being told to myself, Truthfully, i feel such a fool for believing all the words coming out from you.

Now that it's all said and done, I can't believe you were the one.

To build me up and tear me down like an old abandoned house.

What you said when you left, just left me cold and out of breath.

I felt if I was in way to deep, guess I let you get the best of me.

"Remember all the things we wanted"

"Now all our memories they're haunted"

You’re everything I thought you never were. And nothing like I thought you could’ve been. You’re the only one I wish I could forget. The only one I’d love enough To Not Forgive. I wouldn't be in denial with my feelings.

But it doesn't matter anymore to me, Where we take this road someone's gotta go. All i can say & i had said before "I had love you, so thats enough to let you go"

Everything I know about love
I learned from you
And everything I know about pain
I learned from you

You were my only, but Not my Last
You showed me lonely, and make me put you in the Past
But the most important thing you ever gave me
Was the one that hurt the most

Thank you for the broken heart
And thank you for the permanent scar,
'Cause if it wasn’t for you, I might forget
How it feels to let go, and how it feels to get a brand new start
So thank you for the broken heart

All my pain disappear
I've come so far

I thank you
For the broken heart

Lastly, I'll never have a broken heart again

Quotes :

Letting go doesn't mean giving up... it means moving on. It is one of the hardest things a person can do. Starting at birth, we grasp on to anything we can get our hands on, and hold on as if we will cease to exist when we let go. We feel that letting go is giving up, quitting, and that as we all know is cowardly. But as we grow older we are forced to change our way of thinking. We are forced to realize that letting go means accepting things that cannot be. It means maturing and moving on, no matter how hard you have to fight yourself to do so." ~

Sorry, I don't mean to offend anyone or whoever. Whoever is in my shoe would blog this thing out. Thats all.

My Vacation Feb 3rd 2011 Part 2

2011-03-04T12:33:00.031+08:00

Vacation Feb 4th 2011 Part 2

The FootPrint Hostels, best ever to stay in.

7.00am: Waking up early off to Universal Studio

The Hallway of Footprint.

Taking a walk at Little India road, off to LRT

The usual pit stop 7Eleven, *yay* i was holding my breath to keep myself from sneezing!! *yaarrrgghhhh* Morning sneeze? No!! It was yesterday arriving in Singapore sneeze!! >.<

LRT Camera-ing shot!!

I was very sleepy!!! Sleepy headed face!!!

The Monorail that taking us all off to Sentosa Island, Universal Studio.

Monorail Camera-ing~

See how packed inside the monorail!!! Luckily i was standing wayyyyyy back inside!!!

Arrive at Universal Studio~

It was still early as the studio opens at 10.00am. We're like 1 hour early. We're off strolling down to the Garden.

I didn't want to stand on that water vapor, somehow just taking a short pose & it was wet; more to sweaty~ *shrugs*

Holding mybreath not to sneeze~!!!!!!!

Looking at this picture, my 2nd eldest bro(in red sleeveless), i realize that we both do look alike~ People always mistaken us for being Twins!!! I wish!!! ^_^

The So-Called-Twins spontaneously doing the one leg jumped!! Haaaaaa~

I waslaughing my head off when the fountain shooter tends to vibes up higher! My eldest bro had to stood still, for 15 secs for us to take the shot~ He's almost wet, more to really ends up getting wet!!! *LOL*

My turn getting the Jump!! I say, "Jump!!". Fountain says, "How High!!"

The Thinking Man~ My 2nd eldest Bro's left his Thinking Friend here. ^_^

Hi ho!! Universal Studio Globe!!!

Hungry~ Hungry~ Hungry mode!!!

Betty Boop on the Road!!

Salute the way on Universal Studio Pathway!!

Classic Bettle Juice

To conquer The Mummy Revenge!

I love this Galatica Rides!!! First ride 'Cylon'!! I had the best scream ever!! At the top of my lungs to relieve the stress!!!!

Second ride 'Human', guess what....i was freaking tired...my 2nd eldest bro was laughing at me because i was yawning during the ride!! *lol*

My Favorite Chocolatees M&M~ *this goes to Cranky Old Man, Joe B AngeL i'd always remember & most of all i missed your teasing mood ~_~* Where you at man???!!
A vacation is like love - anticipated with pleasure, experienced with discomfort, and remembered with nostalgia.

My Vacation Feb 3rd 2011 Part 1

2011-03-01T13:04:00.019+08:00

Part 1: Singapore Feb 3rd - 6th 2011

My wish came true!!! Had my vacation to Singapore!!!! Yipeeeee!!!!

Feb 3rd 2011: 7.30am early morning boarding for Brunei via Airasia flight. Flight boarding at 9.30 however, our flight delayed 1 hour late.

Await at the boarding room was pretty much sleepy, but i manage to be on the same flight with a Dancer whom i'd collaborate with before, Suhai(white/black t-shirt). I didn't recognize him at first. So we had a small laugh, chit-chat, gossip-ing while waiting for the delayed flight heheheh...the usual us every time we meet. *winks*

On the plane. The last time we're board on plane was way back in 93' or 94'. Went to KotaKinabalu. My 2nd eldest Bro had this thingee afraid to be on plane. I'm like O.o*WTH* Crap!! hahaha~

Camera-ing on plane~ hahahaha

Eldest Bro being a Sleepyheaded!! He's always that sleepy~ Felt like imma Knocked him up so he would wake up!!!! hahahah >.<

Happy Jolly Jump to arrive safely at KLCC Malaysia Airport. 2.30pm

Which way to go for lunch~

Had our Coffee Zone killing the time~ Was craving for Vanilla Ice Blended since in Miri but didn't manage to get it. Finally i get it~ hahaha...Lame~ >.<

Being playful because we 3 are very Sleeppppppyyyyyyyyy!!!!

Waiting at boarding place~ Had a short walking around the shop in KLCC. We're like 3 hours early waiting for departure to Singapore at 6.00pm

Doing some stretching excersie...hahahha..more to a sexy stretch~ >.<

Arriving at Singapore. Meet our friend MsChaCha at Changi Airport. Checking in to FootPrint Backpacker Hostel at Little India. I simply love Footprint Hostel, the best ever.

Had our late supper & stroll along the pathway before getting some sleep for our next early morning of Universal Studio sight seeing.

7Eleven is the most favorite place to shop in, especially those small bottles of booze. While we're on plane off to Singapore, some smell trigger my nose sense where i keep on "SNEEZING" , i was sneezing the whole time along Singapore pathway. I had a flu & sore throat. Well the sneezing part really bugs me!!!! Even worst my sneezing keeps on going on till we're at Universal Studio the next morning.

Continuing for Part 2 Universal Studio sight seeing.

Hilary Duff - Someone's Watching Over Me (Live at the Gibson Amphitheatre)

2011-01-31T22:59:00.000+08:00

Someone's Watching Over Me"

Found myself today
Oh I found myself and ran away
Something pulled me back
The voice of reason I forgot I had
All I know is you're not here to say
What you always used to say
But it's written in the sky tonight

So I won't give up
No I won't break down
Sooner than it seems life turns around
And I will be strong
Even if it all goes wrong
When I'm standing in the dark I'll still believe
Someone's watching over me

Seen that ray of light
And it's shining on my destiny
Shining all the time
And I wont be afraid
To follow everywhere it's taking me
All I know is yesterday is gone
And right now I belong
To this moment to my dreams

So I won't give up
No I won't break down
Sooner than it seems life turns around
And I will be strong
Even if it all goes wrong
When I'm standing in the dark I'll still believe
Someone's watching over me

It doesn't matter what people say
And it doesn't matter how long it takes
Believe in yourself and you'll fly high
And it only matters how true you are
Be true to yourself and follow your heart

So I won't give up
No I won't break down
Sooner than it seems life turns around
And I will be strong
Even if it all goes wrong
When I'm standing in the dark I'll still believe
That I won't give up
No I won't break down
Sooner than it seems life turns around
And I will be strong
Even when it all goes wrong
When I'm standing in the dark I'll still believe
That someone's watching over
Someone's watching over
Someone's watching over me

Someone's watching over me

Let Bygones Be Bygones

2011-01-29T00:18:00.002+08:00

Let Bygones Be Bygones

All i can say for now!!

Cher - Strong Enough

2011-01-25T00:07:00.000+08:00

I don't need your sympathy
There's nothing you can say or do for me
And I don't want a miracle
You'll never change for no one

I hear your reasons why
Where did you sleep last night?
And was she worth it, was she worth it?

'Cos I'm strong enough
To live without you
Strong enough and I quit crying
Long enough now I'm strong enough
To know you gotta go

There's no more to say
So save your breath
And then walk away
No matter what I hear you say
I'm strong enough to know you gotta go

So you feel misunderstood
Baby, have I got news for you
On being used, I could write a book
You don't wanna hear about it

I've been losing sleep
You've been going cheap
She ain't worth half of me it's true
I'm telling you

Now I'm strong enough to live without you
Strong enough and I quit crying
Long enough now I'm strong enough
To know you gotta go

Come hell or waters high
You'll never see me cry
This is our last goodbye, it's true

I'm telling you
That I'm strong enough to live without you
Stron enough and I quit crying
Long enough now I'm strong enough
To know you gotta go

There's no more to say
So save your breath
And you walk away
No matter what I hear you say
I'm strong enough to know you gotta go

Missing??

2011-01-20T11:58:00.004+08:00

Friends are angels that come from above. Sent down from God for you to love. So if you are sad, and don't know what to do. Just remember that I care for you!

Missing you,

Hisashiburi Awg Gondol, Cranky old man J.Black Angel man

Yours truly,

Senile old woman but still I'm one Hot young lady~ hahahah....

New Year CountDown 2011

2011-01-04T15:53:00.005+08:00

New Year Countdown 2011 Miri Eastwood Valley

December 31st 2010: Our arrival in Miri at Grand Palace Hotel. Sapphire Suite 628. We had no other choice for rooms to rent & end up at a Luxury suite of the Hotel.

Pic courtesy from DJ Sunzone:

Just sharing pictures the arrival in Miri Malaysia of South Side MC Freddy V(FVz) & DJ Sunzone.

Big Love shout out to ma'babe @FreddyV(FVz)

An optimist stays up until midnight to see the new year in. A pessimist stays up to make sure the old year leaves. ~Bill Vaughan

Kelly Clarkson - Cry

2010-12-26T21:13:00.000+08:00

Cry lyrics

If anyone asks,
I'll tell them we both just moved on
When people all stare
I'll pretend that I don't hear them talk
Whenever I see you,
I'll swallow my pride
and bite my tongue
Pretend I'm okay with it all
Act like there's nothing wrong

Is it over yet?
Can I open my eyes?
Is this as hard as it gets?
Is this what it feels like to really cry?
Cry

If anyone asks,
I'll tell them we just grew apart
Yeah what do I care
If they believe me or not
Whenever I feel
Your memory is breaking my heart
I'll pretend I'm okay with it all
Act like there's nothing wrong

Is it over yet?
Can I open my eyes?
Is this as hard as it gets?
Is this what it feels like to really cry?
Cry

I'm talking in circles
I'm lying, they know it
Why won't this just all go away

Is it over yet?
Can I open my eyes?
Is this as hard as it gets?
Is this what it feels like to really cry?
Cry
Cry

Tackey stutters his name

2010-12-17T22:36:00.000+08:00

Aishiteru Tackey-kun

2010-12-17T21:15:00.005+08:00

One particular guy in the universe that makes my heart goes *poof*, would be Hideaki Takizawa-kun *sugoiiii*

Back in 1998 i watched Tackey act on Japanese Drama TV, i think its News on Onna. He was soooooo cuddlely cute at that time. The first thing i saw about him was his red lips & smile. *kakkoi-des* Yes....i'm still head-over-heels every time watching his drama acting, videos on youtube..............*shrieks*

*smooch* Aishiteru Tackey-kun

JoJo - Leave [Get out] (Live at Ryan Seacrest)

2010-12-16T15:02:00.000+08:00

"Leave (Get Out)"

I've been waiting all day for ya babe
So won't cha come and sit and talk to me
And tell me how we're gonna be together always
Hope you know that when it's late at night
I Hold on to my pillow tight
And think of how you promised me forever
(I never thought that anyone)
Could make me feel this way
(Now that you're here boy all I want)
Is just a chance to say

Get Out, (leave) right now,
It's the end of you and me
It's too late (now) and I can't wait for you to be gone
'Cause I know about her (who) and I wonder (why) how I bought all the lies
You said that you would treat me right but you was just a waste of time (waste of time)

Tell me why you're looking so confused
When I'm the one who didn't know the truth
How could you ever be so cold
To go behind my back and call my friend
Boy you must have gone and bumped your head
Because you left her number on your phone
(So now after all is said and done)
Maybe I'm the one to blame but
(To think that you could be the one)
Well it didn't work out that way

I wanted you right here with me but I have no choice you've gotta leave
Because my heart is breakin'
With every word I'm sayin'
I gave up everything I had
On something that just wouldn't last
But I refuse to cry
No tears will fall from these
Eyeee-eeee-eeees
Ooooh, ooooh
Get out

Get out (leave)
You and me
It's too late (too late)
You ohh
Bout her (who, why)
You said that you would treat me right (noooo)
but it was just a waste of time (waste of time)

Quotes i share thru aquiantance blog

2010-12-15T02:03:00.002+08:00

Was browsing my bloggers list of friends. I came across where i share a Quote.

"Life is interesting, in the end some of your greatest pains,become your greatest strength"

I am not discouraged,because every wrong attempt discarded is another step forward.

A man/woman either lives life as it happens to him/her, meets its head-on and licks it, or he/she turns his/her back on it and starts to wither away.

Unless you have the power like Hiro in Heroes who can stop time/back in time/go to the future but every doing/not doing has its own consequence.

Berhenti Berharap - Hidup - Marcell - Music - Indonesia

2010-12-14T19:08:00.000+08:00

Dulu Ku Tak Pernah Percayakan cinta
Yang Tak Harus Memiliki
Pernah Ku Paksakan Walau Tak Sejalan
Meski Ku Tahu Ku Salah

Dan Ku Coba Melupakanmu
Karena Ku Tahu Kau Bukan Milikku
Dan Ku Berhenti Berharap
Akan Cinta Mu Yg Dulu Ada Di Hati
Dan Ku Coba Tuk Bertahan
Walau Berat Kini Ku Berhenti
Berharap...

Kini Ku Akui Hatiku Tak Bisa
Selalu Miliki Dirimu
Pernah Ku Paksakan Walau Tak Sejalan
Meski Ku Tahu Ku Salah

Dan Ku Coba Melupakanmu
Karena Ku Tahu Kau Bukan Milikku
Dan Ku Berhenti Berharap
Akan Cinta Mu Yg Dulu Ada Di Hati
Dan Ku Coba Tuk Bertahan
Walau Berat Kini Ku Berhenti
Berharap...

(HQ) Christina Aguilera - "You Lost Me" 6/9 Letterman (TheAudioPerv.com)

2010-12-14T19:03:00.000+08:00

I am done
Smoking gun
We've lost it all
The love is gone

She has won
Now its no fun
We've lost it all
The love is gone

And we had magic
And this is tragic
You couldn't keep your hands to yourself

I feel like our world's been infected,
And somehow you left me neglected

We've found our lives been changed
Babe, you lost me

And we tried
Oh, how we cried
Oh, we lost ourselves
The love has died

And we had magic
And this is tragic
You couldn't keep your hands to yourself

Oh, I feel like our world's been infected
And somehow you left me neglected
We've found our lives been changed
Cause babe, you lost me

Now I know you're sorry
And we were sweet
Oh, but you chose lust when you deceived me
And you'll regret it, but it's too late
How can I ever trust you again?

I feel like our world's been infected,
And somehow you left me neglected
We've found our lives been changed
Oh babe, you lost me

Nothing last forever

2010-12-14T18:30:00.000+08:00

Deception,Slander

2010-12-14T17:48:00.003+08:00

Well, got something to share;

Young girl: "Oh, i work at the bank"

Guy says: "Really? How old are you?" Sorry i didn't catch what you were saying earlier"

Young girl: "I'm 17"

Guy: *silents*(asking himself...Hmm....ain't here in Brunei only eligible at the age of 18 are allowed to work)

2NE1 - It Hurts (English Version) [DL]

2010-12-10T17:38:00.001+08:00

Think of that time not long ago
All those days we spent alone
Walking hand in and hand and never letting them go

But now you're into someone new
And I can't forgive you
For making all those promises that never will come true

Tell me now where did our love go
Tell me now I've got the right to know
Tell me how you can stand the way you're hurting me so oh oh
Tell me if you ever change your mind
Tell me if you wanna make it right
Am I the only one hurt tonight?

Oh baby, why don't you care?
Whatever happens to me you won't be there
And I know wherever we go
We'll be apart, apart, apart

Can't see what you have done to the girl that you adored
I used to touch the sky but now I'm down to the floor

I gave my everything to you
And we both know that whoever you replace me with
She'll never love you like I do

Tell me now where did our love go
Tell me now I've got the right to know
Tell me how you can stand the way you're hurting me so oh oh-oh
Tell me if you ever change your mind
Tell me if you wanna make it right
Am I the only one hurt tonight?

Oh baby, why don't you care?
Whatever happens to me you wont be there
And I know wherever we'll go
We'll be apart, apart, apart

You're no longer the man you used to be
Cause the man that I loved wasn't cruel to me
He'd never hurt me so

Now I'm on my knees, as you watch me cry
You just stand there calm, all you do is sigh
No way, I can't recognize
You're not mine anymore

Oh, oh my baby, why don't you care?!
Whatever happens to me you won't be there
And I know wherever we'll go
We'll be apart, apart, apart
Apart, apart, apart, apart

AB Avenue - Women Know [MV][HD] [Eng Sub] {Hard}

2010-12-10T17:20:00.000+08:00

- Let him fly

2010-12-09T04:37:00.000+08:00

Rossa - Hati Yang Kau Sakiti - Lyrics On Screen - High Quality

2010-12-07T22:24:00.000+08:00

Avril Lavigne - Live in Toronto 2008 - My happy ending [HD]

2010-12-07T18:29:00.000+08:00

"My Happy Ending"

So much for my happy ending
Oh oh, oh oh, oh oh...

Let's talk this over
It's not like we're dead
Was it something I did?
Was it something You said?
Don't leave me hanging
In a city so dead
Held up so high
On such a breakable thread

You were all the things I thought I knew
And I thought we could be

You were everything, everything that I wanted
We were meant to be, supposed to be, but we lost it
And all of the memories, so close to me, just fade away
All this time you were pretending
So much for my happy ending
Oh oh, oh oh, oh oh...

You've got your dim friends
I know what they say
They tell you I'm difficult
But so are they
But they don't know me
Do they even know you?
All the things you hide from me
All the shit/stuff that you do

You were all the things I thought I knew
And I thought we could be

It's nice to know that you were there
Thanks for acting like you cared
And making me feel like I was the only one
It's nice to know we had it all
Thanks for watching as I fall
And letting me know we were done

Oh oh, oh oh, oh oh...
So much for my happy ending

Oh oh, oh oh, oh oh...

Regret english (Hoshimura Mai, D.Gray-man COVER)

2010-12-06T13:24:00.000+08:00

VERSE 1
Ive been lost in a world of my own,
In a place where you are there:
Almost everywhere I turn and where I go.
If you werent there for me,
I dont know what Id do,
But I know I wouldnt have survived if you didnt save me.

And I saw you,
Within my dream.
When I found you,
I found me.

And then I told,
To you all my deepest fears.
Then you said to me,
That its alright, all alright.

CHORUS
I wouldnt believe I couldve gone on without you.
I want you to turn around and say: I love you too.
I wouldnt believe that you would leave me all alone.
I want us together, side by side,
Forever you and I.

VERSE 2
The scenery outside changes,
The seasons leave me behind.
I couldnt take the seeds of worry from my mind.
Remembering is painful,
When I finally realised:
That I regret relying on you more than ever.

And I saw you,
Waiting for me,
When I found you,
I found me.

And then I told,
To you my greatest hearts desires,
But you said to me,
That its not right; wont be right.

CHORUS
I wouldnt believe I couldve gone on without you.
I want you to turn around and say: I love you too.
I wouldnt believe that you would lose your faith in me.
I want us together, side by side,
Itll just be you and I.

INSTRUMENTAL BREAK/BRIDGE

BRIDGE
You made me believe that we were really meant to be.
Id wait for you always cause I thought, that you loved me.
I didnt believe that you would leave me on my own.
Now, I think its fair that I can say,
You truly proved me wrong.

CHORUS
I dont want to believe that we will go our separate ways.
If you, gave me a second chance wed be, so wonderful.
But, now I can see that it is just one lost cause.
Yet, I cant forget what itd be like,
Forever you and I.

All time childhood characters

2010-12-03T08:08:00.004+08:00

Cartoon character from your childhood and
invite your friends to do the same thing until Monday 6th December.

My favorite all time childhood character would be Coda Warrior from WiLdC.a.t.s

An invasion of memories.

For the fight against child violence.

Death of a Loved One

2010-11-29T22:32:00.001+08:00

A Death in the family leaves a void that cannot be filled. No one can ever take the place of this individual in the world. We should not try to comfort the family by saying that "it was his time anyway", or, "he was suffering".

These may be words of comfort later. However, there must be time to mourn the fact that things will never be the same. One minute he was here and now he is gone. The human mind must be allowed to sit with this reality.

Mourning is a necessary part of the human experience. If it is ignored, a general feeling of sadness may pervade the whole family.

Nov 27th '10: As i barely knew them, i felt at my utmost fragile sense to the loss of their loving father. Deepest condolence from myself.

TLC - Dear Lie

2010-11-19T00:06:00.000+08:00

Dear lie
You suck
You said you could fix anything
Instead I’m fucked
You made things even worse for me
If I had balls I’d tell you get away from me
Guess I’m not smart
I let you unnerve me
I let you control me
Afraid the truth would hurt me
When it’s you that hurts me more

Chorus
Get outta my mouth
Get outta my head
Get outta my mind
Stop puttin’ words in my head
Get outta my mouth
You’re nothing but trouble
Get outta my life
Get out of me
Out of me out of me
Out of me
Out of me lie
Lie lie lie lie

Dear lie
You’re dumb
You think you’ve got the best of me
You think you won
Misread my vulnerability
I’ve got your walls
Now get the hell away from me
I’ve learned your art
Won’t let you unnerve me
Won’t let you control me
The truth will only free me
And your lies won’t hurt no
No more

Chorus

Lie lie
I’ve got
Your walls
Now get the hell away from me
I learned your art
Won’t let you unnerve me
Wont’ let you control me
The truth will only free me
And your lies won’t hurt no
No more

Chorus

Lie lie
Dear lie
Lie lie lie lie
Lie lie
Dear lie

平井堅 - 楽園 & CANDY (english subbed)

2010-11-16T02:57:00.000+08:00

Happy birthday ELL,Unal,Sang

2010-10-14T21:11:00.003+08:00

Happy birthday to my Bro eLL@Unal@Sang October 12th 2010

Quotes: For all the advances in medicine, there is still no cure for the common birthday.

Suzanna & Rathnizam's Oct 8th 2010 Solemnisation

2010-10-14T17:24:00.025+08:00

Suzanna & Rathnizam's Oct 8th 2010 Solemnisation

October is a big day for my dearest cousin, to be precise 1st cousin from my mom side(our moms are siblings). I'm very lucky to be at her solemnisation for the very last minute, as requested from the Bride herself; I'm her Maid of Honor.

A story behind all the preparation for her soleminsation was, i got sick real bad. I got Allergy Attack 1 week before. Lucky me at the very last minute i manage to recover quickly. Surprising yes!

Pictures will tell the whole candids & storylines. Take a peek~

Waiting for the Bride & Bridegroom to come. Pose with relatives.

With my bro's spouse. *love her ankle boots*

My Bro & I, the usual always taking moment to remember that this the day our cousin closes during childhood begin her new life as a Wife.

Beautiful flower Girls & Boys

Bridesmaidwearing green-ish yellowish dresses. *sorry for the unclear view*

Starting of the event, Flower Boys, Girls, Bridesmaids, Entering the hall.

Yours truly,Maid of Honor entering *huhu my cousin bride's sis forgot my flower*

*Owh~ Didn't manage to take pictures of Bridegroom entering before the Bride*

Bride & her Daddy walking down the isle.

Inside the hall, Blessing the Newly Wed

Very sweet & romantic of theBridegroom wiping tears off the Brides cheek after exchanging wedding rings *tears*

Happy after signing marriage cert.

Brides Parents

Bridegroom Parents

Walking out down the isle. ~kiss~kiss~love you~

Bride & Bridegroom with both parents.

Lastly, with Maid of Honor & Best Man. Lovely Event <3

I would like to congratulate the Newly Wed, Families, Relatives & Friends who attend the event.

Pictures courtesy from Mona Morein Jantin & My bro ELL

Quotes: Compromise: An amiable arrangement between husband and wife whereby they agree to let her have her own way.

Trip to KK Again June 2010

2010-08-03T15:02:00.035+08:00

KK Trip Again June 2010

Yeaa.....Trip to KK, Sabah again. After two years, i came back again. Except my hair back then was long & this year short hair, short pants....hehehehe...

Loving the weather in KK, its breezy & cool.

June 11th 2010 Friday: Journey from Kuala Belait at 5am. I had a pretty rough sleep,couldn't sleep at all, guess i was too excited for the trip. Didn't take some pictures along the way to KK, was sleeping the whole trip. Thanks for the night before.

Reach KK by 2.00pm, went to 1Borneo for short shopping spree.

Parents were doing the short shopping spree.

I was sitting on the bench after going around 1Borneo Mall.

We check-in to Myne Hotel at Warisan Square Sabah.

Waiting up at the Lobby.

Loving the room thou a LiL small, its comfy enough.

Taking pictures for better view.

Night comes, My Bro Gibb & I went down to B.E.D Club WaterFront & watch TV opening game for World Cup.

Saw all the commotion with World Cup in the club.

Enjoying all the performance including World Cup watchers.

Yours truly. Ugly me! *ouch*

My Bro, Mr Gibb *Captain Jack Sparrow assistant* hahahaha

The Next Morning June 12th 2010 Saturday

Going off to Kota Kinabalu Taman Warisan.

First timer to the 2 LiL Sis of ours going to this place.

Mount Kinabalu. I clearly remember back in 1995 or 1996. Mount Kinabalu was fill with greenish colour & now its shiny rocky all over. *surprise*

Getting ready to go up at the Admin office.

My sis was amaze with the Breezy, Coolness weather. Yah, we were wearing short. pants.

Yours truly. I'm enjoying the moment of the place, love the weather up there so much!!!! Its breezy & cool sensation ever!*ecstatic*

Taking time to rest.

Yahhh.....my bro is dreaming of hugging a huge pile of rock. LOLx

Off to Hot Spring. Oh lordy going there was Hot!!!!! The weather makes me dehydrated & got a lil dizzy. Most of my time was finding place to cover up from the striking hot weather.

Going back to KK Town. Enjoying the view at Waterfront Walk pathway. Before going back to our hotel.

Waterfront Beautiful Stalls

The night goes on. Went again to B.E.D Club Waterfront, an event going on. Its X-Play Dj Competition. Something like that, couldn't remember what was the event for.

It was crowded & pack!!!!!! I enjoy the night, music was a blast!!! And of course the booze!! Wuuuuhuuuuuu~

My booze. Melon Smash L**** Cocktail~ i drank up the whole 1 Jug alone *no kidding* ~_~

The finishing of booze. Yup back to hotel at 4am, i was hung up, puked & wasted to sleep....hahahahah.

Quotes: Vacation used to be a luxury, but in today's world it has become a necessity.

Selamat Hari Gawai Dayak 2010

2010-05-31T22:34:00.003+08:00

Hey~ Dropping by to wish all the Ibans in the world, where you people are....Selamat Hari Gawai Dayak....Gayu Guru Gerai Nyamai, Nya meh ku kitai ngena sama bansa~ Enjoy ku orang ribai, Nyami ku kitai~ Hehehehe....Minta maaf minta ampun enti jaku ku enda lurus laban nadai entu begulai enggau urang urang tuai~

Moron People

2010-02-17T21:45:00.004+08:00

Quotes : Discriminating other People Doesn't makes you a Better Person in the World, even using your own religion to degrade other religions or races.

Guess some people are to Blind to be Proud of what they're doing and makes them....

Noor Ayuni & Raduan's Wedding

2010-02-16T17:25:00.009+08:00

Ayu & Duan's Wedding December 20th 2009

A small contribute to one of our closes friends. Knowing her since 1996, and here are all the pictures during her wedding day~

Heheheheh...i appreciate from the bottom of my heart that she sincerely requested me to be her "Bridesmaid", in which i didn't expected. Anyhoo....enjoy the pictures...plus, Its her wedding day & her birthday~ 2 in 1...

Congratulations on your Wedding & Happy birthday my dear friend.

New Year 2010

2010-01-14T18:01:00.004+08:00

NEW YEAR JAN 1st 2010

Happy New Year 2010: Yea we celebrated our New Year in Miri, Malaysia. Stayed at EastWood Valley Resort full of Greenish, Flora & Fauna place to stay. Unfortunately, didnt take any pictures of the place much because we're kinda in a rush of going home~ Enjoy the pictures~

Surprise Birthday for me

2010-01-05T17:43:00.018+08:00

SURPRISE~!!!!!! HaPPy 27th BiRtHdAy to Me~!

December 18th 2009 - Yea...Been HIATUS for a while...But i'm back, and so i want to share during an event for my Birthday. Its was an Advance Birthday + a

Surprise~! My Birthday falls on the next day December 19th

2009. Anyhoooooooo...back to my story telling....I'd almost Burst into tears, To me its my very FIRST SURPRISE Birthday for

me...normally i'd always make surprises for everyone.

Damnnnnnn....i'm too old for this S.H.I.T~! Hahahahaha.....ok..la...ok..la...Don't get Mad for I being a Cranky Old Young Woman whos thinking of I'M GETTING OLD~! Hahahahah...anyhoo...I'd Love the surprises, plus,plus...I'm Lucky NO ONE sneak a candid shoot while i was about to burst in tears~ *pheeewwwww* Lucky me~! Ahaks~!

Well...i told em' earlier that, if they want to make any SURPRISES, i'm pretty sure i will KNOW about it, but guess i was UNAWARE of any plans made, because i was busy preparing for one of our Closes Friend Wedding event during that week.

My Bro eLL told me that they gonna Treat me a Nice Warm Dinner for my Advance Birthday~ I didnt want to go due to Heavy Rainstorm that night but they insist on going out, ahahahah, 1st sign alert SURPRISE; in which i

didnt realise,

Question from me: "So who's tagging along?"

My Bro eLL: "Ms SpiLLeR...hmmm...Ms IceAged Chacha will meet up after she's done from BSB"

'2nd sign alert SURPRISE'....I was Reluctant to realise whats going on.

We had a NICE WARM BIG MEAL DINNER that night~! Let the pictures tell the whole event happened during the night of my SURPRISES ADVANCE BIRTHDAY~!

Crazy candid pose~! *gasps*

Christmas Tree at WyWy Restuarant KB

Christmas Tree at WyWy KB

SURPRISES~!!!!

Blew away all the Bad Omen~!!!

OoooPpPssss~! Gotcha~! Almost burst into tears!!

Happy 27th Birthday~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I THANK everybody, Thank You for the Surprise, Thank You for the Warm Greetings at Facebook Wall......I know this sounded L.A.M.E as they pronounce it L.A.M.E.H......I L.O.V.E YoU ALL~!!!

From me: Sky~